bad news:

everyone sucks and makes me absolutely livid

i’m pretty sure all i do is sit at my kitchen table and yell about everyone to my nana now.

and i’m miserable. going away for the weekend to Vermont was what I really needed. and it was great. i was able to clear my head and be surrounded by some of my favorite people. they’re real, and they’re just what i needed.

but then i had to come back to this shit hole. and i love it here. i just don’t like the people here. need change. now.

i think part of it is that i expect more than i should from people. just because i put in my 50% or often 70% or maybe even 100% doesn’t mean that the other human being will always balance it out

good news:

today i found the $20 i misplaced last month

but it’s not like i can use it… it goes toward my yearbook

but i’m glad i found it because i’m generally really responsible with money especially if it is someone else’s. so a bit of relief there.

also my work generally cuts hours in the winter, and i told my boss that i would see him Sunday and he responded with

“that’s the next time you’re working!? you need to talk to (insert scheduling manager’s name here) to get more hours.”

so that was nice

but basically, my life is one big shit storm and i’m over tired and grumpy all of the time and everyone hates each other

OH and FUCK YOU, i liked you better when you weren’t in my life

the end.